The slimmer me…

The thoughts are rolling fast and hard tonight folks…..

I thought, it’s about time that I put a bit of an update out here about the ol’ Birth of My Girth…..

Folks, 23 pounds gone.  Not alot, but hey….it’s better than I anticipated.

I got off to a pretty good start this year and for some reason I have been sidetracked almost daily from work, kids, stress, family, health, house….etc……yes, I can find every excuse in the book.

I have found that I truly lack a certain degree of willpower when it comes to me and my appearance.  I quit smoking cold turkey almost two years ago now and the two occasions when I picked a stick up….I quickly remembered by I gave them up.  But that is about as far as my willpower will take me.

Why can I have the backbone to quit smoking, yet not get my fat ass up and exercise?  I struggle with this.  Now, it’s blazing hot in the afternoons (Texas and all), I do get in the pool, however, with kids, they always want to “play,” when  I tell them I want to exercise, I get met with “aw, mom, we don’t spend enough time together playing anymore….play with me….”  Works like a charm, every time.  I can’t help it, I want this time with them now….

I need to keep focused on I want the time with them later in life as well.  I have to keep telling myself that.  I have been better about not drinking sodas, taking my lunch to work, not eating too unhealthy.  But I find I fall more than I would prefer.  *sigh*

I did research some “cleanses” for my body and so far, Isagenix, is the product I am most comfortable with.  I have a few friends on it, I have seen the results on them and I am thinking this is a product that I can use.  I read into the whole “cayenne pepper, lemon juice, honey and water” cleanse and all I can imagine is a truly unbearable case of diarreah that will drop me to my knees….nope, no thank you….not my scene.

Leslie & I have found Weight Watchers meetings close to the house and are inquiring about the group times when about joining.  My sister has all the books and such and will be forking those over as soon as she can put hands on them. 

I have decided gastric bypass is much too invasive for me and therefore I will not be going under the knife for a smaller waist.  I have thought about Lapband, but haven’t researched it yet.  I don’t know that a surgery is something I want to do for a situation that I put myself in with every bite I put in my mouth.

I have a support system in place that I need to learn to lean on, to talk to and to share with.  I can’t do this on my own.   I am an emotional eater and instead of putting food in my face, I need to find someone, talk to them and get through it without cheesecake, Twinkies or Rolos…..

I am religious about my water intake.  It’s a double edged sword…..I am prone to kidney stones.  Bouts of them that land me in the hopsital.  And after being in labor with two children…..kidney stores are just too close to labor pain for my taste and well, THEY HURT!!!!!  So to keep them at bay, I drink LOTS of water and cranberry juice….

oh, my cranberry juice…..so good for me….LOADED WITH CALORIES!!!!!!!!  I was sabotaging myself, without thinking about it.  Trying to switch to Pomegrante juice…..it’s an acquired taste…..not sure if I have acquired it yet….

So, I am going to be resolute in my water, my weight watchers, my food log and my exercise.  I need to make sure that I am here for at LEAST 50 more years or so……